when I have it backward…

Yesterday’s JOY DARE… 

three hard eucharisteos

…why is this so hard for me?  

why do I easily say thank You for the hard things…

… the low checking account balance that leaves me trusting 
… the broken bone and that it is only one 
… the phone call to the surgeon, who was in California, because my man, the OR nurse, trusts him with our son

Why is it these things that I find to be the hard eucharisteo?  Why do I stumble saying thank You for these…

… the ones whose comments make my head spin
… the relatively easy conversations with the school this morning to get the mancub out of school for a few days
… my man’s knowledge and expertise that this mother’s heart fails to trust

I’ve wondered if I live life backward?  Why is the hard easier than the simple?  Why does my tongue stumble over thank You

… for miscommunication that ends in abiding love
… for a mancub with heart full of adventure
… for the intent of the heart rather than the words of the mouth

The longer I live… the less I know.  Today, I seem to know very little… except that I live the hard eucharisteo backward.  

It’s easy for me to say thank You for things I deem out of my control.  It’s much harder to say thank You in an effort to control the attitude of my heart. 

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