stepping down too far…

I waited patiently for the Lord;
And He inclined to me and heard my cry.
He brought me up out of the pit of destruction, out of the miry clay,
And He set my feet upon a rock making my footsteps firm.
He put a new song in my mouth, a song of praise to our God;
Many will see and fear
And will trust in the Lord.
Psalm 40:1-3

When I started this 31 day blogging challenge… I had no idea. Honest. I simply thought I needed to step down from the self-made elevation that I had created. I didn’t know.

I didn’t know that it is possible to descend too far. I didn’t know that there are only a few steps between living an elevated life and wallowing in a miry pit. In my haste to descend… I went too far.

I cannot truthfully say that I waited patiently for the Lord. If I had waited patiently, I probably wouldn’t have sank so low. I am sure I would have been covered in less mud too.

No… rather than wait patiently, I flailed around for a while and wore myself out. I worried and stewed. I pouted in my pity party of one. My misery seeped out to these four I love the most… who also put up with the most.

Finally, on Friday, I think God had enough. For a moment, he took away both vehicles and my computer. My mom came and picked up Ellen and took her to my sisters for a long weekend. Emme was on fall break and spent the day with her BFF. Eric went to school and Chad was at work. I think if Ebony could have figured out a way to get away from me, she probably would have. Instead, she curled up on Emme’s bed and ignored me for a while.

I was left alone in my pit.

But… my God is the God of muddy pits and in those Friday morning moments, He reached down and I reached up. He pulled me out and set my feet on His solid ground. I’ve been shaking the mud off since.

I spent a beautiful rainy Friday curled up with my Bible and later a book to read for fun… a down comforter, a cup of coffee, and later a warm puppy. It was soul food.

The amazing thing in all this? Less than 24 hours later, God and Chad had both trucks running beautifully and God taught Chad how to splice and solder my computer cable so that my mac could charge and I could be on grid and online again.

Seriously… less than 24 hours. Remind me of this next time I sink too low… please!

4 thoughts on “stepping down too far…

  1. Been There! Done That! We all need God’s grace all the time. He is always reaching down to lift us up if we just pay attention. Blessings. And welcome back.

  2. I hate how our emotions are like a roller coaster. I was feeling awesome this morning, and even in that moment I thought oh God don’t let the crash be too hard. I journal through the day and often I’ll find that I go from high to low in the same day and don’t even realize it. It’s the present moment that seems strongest.

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