If there is one thing that I’ve learned in this 31 days of stepping down, it’s that you can step so far down you find yourself in a muddy pit… wallowing.
I started this journey because I also knew that one can spend all summer trying to build herself up to the point that she needs to be knocked down a step or two.
I’ve been too far up
and I’ve been too far down
and I’m not crazy about either place
Today… I found the middle step. That place where peace resides. It’s directly under His wing and there is joy here.
Today, this step looked like a trip to be with my parents at the hospital awaiting further tests for my dad and later a trip home to a kitchen full of pumpkin seeds and pumpkin slime.
I think the view from this middle step will be different every day. I think I need to learn to be okay with that… because it’s a seat of trust. Trusting the One Who knows what each day holds and letting Him hold me.
I like this step.
I think I’ll stay awhile.
It feels just right!