an inch here, butter there, and other such gifts…

The mind of man plans his way,
But the Lord directs his steps.
Psalm 16:9

This verse has been the theme of my existence. I’m a planner… I like to have a general idea of what each day holds. And, if I fall into bed at night with a completed to-do list, it’s a great day!

Delight yourself in the Lord;
And He will give you the desires of your heart.
Commit your way to the Lord,
Trust also in Him, and He will do it.
Psalm 37:4-5

I think God has taken me out of the classroom and on a field trip this fall. It’s been a long trip. In hindsight, I wonder if it would have been a shorter one if I wouldn’t have fought Him so much along the way….

if only I weren’t so much like the Israelites wandering the desert

Thankfully, I haven’t been wandering this field trip for forty years. Though, I feel like I can finally say, I would if that were what He wanted.  Ever so slowly, I’m relearning to delight in a day with Him rather than a finished to-do list. I’m relearning to rest in Him… to allow Him to be my strength and my shield. I’m relearning to allow Him to give me the desires of my heart, rather than to rely on my own self.

and, oh the gifts that come when I trust and wait for Him!
He surprises me in all the best possible ways…

I’m counting His grace gifts to me again on this Multitudes on Monday with the gratitude community at Ann’s. It’s in the counting of the gifts that I see that when I delight myself in Him, He truly gives me the desires of my heart.

He really does.

… for the Goodwill jeans I bought that I later realized were hemmed… He gave these long legs an extra inch of denim!
… for the added blessing of two American Girl dolls at Goodwill
… for the heart of a girl willing to wait until Christmas

… for the taste of butter after running out
… for a family who is learning that waiting 24 hours for something as simple as butter isn’t that hard
… for the fact that my children are learning the lesson of waiting
… and that we don’t truly understand the concept of going without

… for laughter around the table
… for hearing gratitude in their prayers
… and love as they thank one another

… for friends who buy
… and promote the book
… and encourage me to keep writing

… for the lesson of learning to rejoice in pain
… and rest in the wait

… for the prayers of friends who lift me up when my head feels like it will explode
… for the gift of a quiet afternoon

… for the love of a man who cares
… for a gentle kiss
… and a squeeze of his hand

… for the promise of snow in the air
… and warm fall days
… all in the same week

… for the internet to keep family connected
… for doctors and their wisdom
… and non-invasive tests that give more undertanding

… for the gentle Shepherd that though He takes me out into the field, He never leaves nor forsakes
… He gives good gifts without measure
… and His love endures forever

6 thoughts on “an inch here, butter there, and other such gifts…

  1. Nothing compares with the lesson that there is plenty, even if we need to wait a bit. The patience of waiting for the gifts is as blessed as the joy of counting the gifts. Maybe we need to count in advance, because we know the gifts are coming.

    Great post, Heidi. Thank you for sharing very deep and personal experiences.

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