what I thought I knew about enough…

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I wrote a little piece
about enough
and people commented
and complimented.

And, I felt all grown-up,
like I knew something great
or finally learned an important lesson.

Maybe I did,
maybe I didn’t.

Either way,
there is much more to learn.

To be honest,
enough
blows my mind
and for these forty-three years
I’ve believed the wrong definition.

I honestly believed
that a person
accumulated things…
stuff, junk, clothing,
friends, accolades,
food…
until they reached
an obscure point
and suddenly realized
it was enough.

I thought
this was the lesson…
that you need less of those
things than you think
to be enough.

I posted my
wise little ditty
last Sunday.

I hit “publish”
read comments
and thought…
“I’m so smart!”

And, then,
Monday came.
As it always does.

A week of being tested,
is enough really enough?

A week of my desire to
please my God
up against
my desire to please myself.

It’s been a ride,
to say the least.

He humbles me
time and time again…

and teaches the
lesson as many
times as it takes…

Enough isn’t enough
until you first surrender
to enough….

…and then everything you have
is more than enough.

6 thoughts on “what I thought I knew about enough…

  1. sorry you had a trying week….I’m not sure we will ever truly understand enough on this earth. Then we will be in Heaven where we will have so much more than enough of Him.

  2. I loved last week’s post. I love this one even more. This one resonates with a teaching I finally absorbed a couple of years ago.
    I grew up hearing sermons about stewardship. They were all linked to campaigns for the church members to commit to giving tithes and offerings. I thought that was what stewardhip was about.
    Then I read a book called “Gratefulness, the Heart of Prayer.” I have read that book more than once, and the more I learned about being grateful, the more I realized how completely inadequate all those stewardship campaigns were.
    To get to the point, I learned to be grateful for what I have received, whatever it is. I learned that when I am grateful for what I have received as God’s gift, then my gratefulness dictates that I use the gift in a way that shows God how grateful I am. I don’t discard something useful because there isn’t much. I don’t disdain the old model as soon as I see the new one. I am grateful not only for a chuck roast, but also for the gift of people and books that have taught me so many flavorful and attractive ways to prepare it. I give thanks for meat I can afford that feeds my family and becomes the center of a meal that nourishes our bodies at the same time we nourish our spirits in conversation around the table.
    After I began to learn this lesson, I found myself saying “Thank you, Lord, for whoever figured out how to make this wonderful saucepan that makes me a better cook.” When drying dishes, I said, “Thank you, Lord, for this mug that feels just right in my hand when it is filled with coffee in the morning.” When spreading up the bed, I said, “Thank you, Lord, for helping us find these great sheets on sale, because we could never have afforded such nice ones at the usual price.”
    Grateful stewardship is very different from the stewardship campaigns of my childhood. Grateful stewardship means that what I have is always enough, because it is God’s provision. In fact, it is probably enough to share, because God is not stingy.
    Today’s post says all this much more poetically.
    Thank you.

    1. YES! YES!! YES!!! Though I think your comment communicated it better than my entire post. This is it! Thank you!!

      Who is the author of that book? I’d like to find it and read it. 😉

      1. I am sorry to be so slow to respond to you. We have had big internet issues. No less than 11 support calls in four days. It seems to be working better now. They said they were doing an upgrade, but if that is so, it was a poorly managed project. Thank goodness I had posted far enough ahead that I got through a few days of very poor service.

        The answer to your question is: Gratefulness, the Heart of Prayer by David Steindl-Rast. I loved the book. When I read his work, I filter some of it, but I do keep going back to this book.

        Blessings,

        Katherine Harms

        http://livingontilt.wordpress.com

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