this mama’s heart…

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I first saw this quote while shopping at a sweet little store in Holland, Michigan, with my sisters and my mom…almost a decade ago.

These words have stuck,
and I’ve thought of this quote a million times, or more, over the years.

The memory of this quote comes most often
when another adult wrongs my child.

This mama’s heart loves ferociously
these three that I carried
and named
and nursed.

This mama’s heart loves protectively
these three who fill my life
with joy
and laughter.

This mama’s heart loves abundantly
these three whose legs carry her heart
to school
and practices
and games.

And, this mama’s heart breaks wide open
when the tears flow freely,
over and over again,
and the words pour forth,
“I don’t even matter!”

And in that moment,
this mama’s heart,
while bruised and bleeding,
wants nothing more
than to attack back…
to seek and destroy
the one who dared
to wrong my child,
my heart.

Yet, my eyes read…

I wait quietly before God,
for my victory comes from him.
He alone is my rock and my salvation,
my fortress where I will never be shaken…
Let all that I am wait quietly before God,
for my hope is in him.
He alone is my rock and my salvation,
my fortress where I will not be shaken.
My victory and honor come from God alone.
He is my refuge, a rock where no enemy can reach me.
O my people, trust in him at all times.
Pour out your heart to him,
for God is our refuge.

Psalm 62

…and my heart quiets its fight.

For though this mama’s heart
walks outside her body with her three,
she knows the One who holds them
in the palm of His hand.

And though her heart
is still bruised and bleeding,
she knows He’s got it.

It’s okay.

3 thoughts on “this mama’s heart…

  1. Wow! Great post, it amazes me sometimes that you and I are in the same spot often. Just had a situation with my dad, I’ve been praying for god to help me. This verse was great! I am also a fierce mama bear!!

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